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Sometimes I wonder what my brain is playing at. It’s tired, so I go to bed. Then it won’t sleep, and insists on me flipping from lying in one direction to the other all night. When I do get to sleep, it’s unsatisfying dream-sleep with slightly unsettling and even nasty dreams.
Every so often something wakes me up. Last night it was:

  • A Fox screaming unnecessarily loudly
  • Violently painful leg cramps
  • An unnatural thirst
  • Nothing at all

Being woken up for nothing at all is the worst. This is when my brain produces a list of things to worry about. For some reason, lying on ones back in the dark stimulates the brain’s worry-centres. Here is a list of “Top of the cack late-night-bed-worries”:

  1. Money, and the lack of it
  2. Tax assessment
  3. Work
  4. The things I told people I would do and then forgot about
  5. I drink too much and will soon be dead
  6. I’ve only eaten pizza all day and will soon be dead due to vegetable deficiency
  7. Bills
  8. The thought of having to move house ever again
  9. Did I piss [insert name here] off in the pub tonight – I was a bit pissed

Why ? Why doesn’t it just let me sleep. Now I’m up at 8am typing this shit – tonight I’ll be even more knackered and will probably end up with even more late-night anxst..


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